On April 22nd, we have a Scorpio Full Moon at 2 degrees.
Scorpio encourages you to focus on your inner world. The more you search for happiness outside of you, the more it eludes you.
‘Happiness resides not in possession and not in gold, happiness dwells in the soul.’
Scorpio rules the underworld, the darkness, crisis. Often from your hardest times you emerge better and stronger than you were before. Pluto, ruler of Scorpio is all about transforming yourself.
Your biggest fears may come up for healing. Go into the darkness. Don’t be afraid of it.
Many of you have observed my transformation over the last few months. Has it been easy?? NO! There are many days when it is very difficult, some days when the pain feels unbearable, when it’s quite frightening, but as I keep releasing layer after layer of stuff, I feel a new lightness of being that is quite magical.
Intimacy, surrender and releasing are Scorpio keywords.
So now, quaking in my boots again, I am going to take another risk and share something very personal with you. For many years I used to have colonic hydrotherapy very regularly, sometimes even every month. It was always stressful and I never fully relaxed, no matter how well I knew the therapist.
It had been 4 years and with all the stress of the break up of my important relationship, the move of country and physical changes, I knew that my body would benefit from a colonic. The usual fears began to surface. How to find somewhere in Greece that I could trust? The internet showed me a place in the centre of town and with great trepidation I made an appointment.
Now that I am learning how to surrender, to relax, to release, I asked my guides to show me how to apply this to every area of my life including this colonic.
I asked the therapist not to talk to me and to allow me to relax and breathe during the session. MY GREATEST FEAR is to have an accident and not be able to make it to the bathroom. And guess what? That’s exactly what happened!! In 20 years of colonics, I never had the slightest blip, but this time, my body took over. I was in agony, nearly passing out with pain, in a cold sweat, and there was no way I could get off that table. So it all came out!! My Libra sensitivity doesn’t like sharing the coarser aspects of life, but since this is a Scorpio Full Moon, I hope that you will understand.
The therapist was just lovely about everything telling me that there was no problem at all. In fact, it was quite an intimate moment and she told me she felt privileged to be a part of it.
What is your biggest fear? Can you surrender and release?
Venus conjunct Uranus in Aries square to Pluto at the time of this Full Moon, is asking you to become more intimate with yourself.
How often do you touch yourself gently, with affection?
Do you stroke your hair, are you gentle with your body when you are in the shower?
As I write this, I realise this could be taken in an erotic way, but that is not my intention! I am merely wanting to make you aware of treating yourself lovingly.
Since my transformational kick up the butt from Pluto and Uranus, I am appreciating all the little things about my body. I love brushing my fingers through my hair, the softness, and it’s so soothing.
Yes, I do have hanging skin – and can I love that too? It’s taken quite a while, and I do have my off days, but for the most part, I even love the wrinkly skin!
Of course, there’s much, much more to share and that’s all going into my book about personal transformation with the help of Pluto and Uranus!